I Want to Want Something

Having is not so pleasing a thing as wanting.

Or goes Spock in Amok Time.

The other day I was browsing the aisles at the local Lowe’s. I already had in my hand what I came for - a few steel sign holders for some yard signs for my campaign - but I wanted something else. I wasn’t sure what it was.

I don’t really want anything. I pretty much have what I want. I have an awesome wife and two awesome kids. I mean, we have our good moments and not-so-good moments, but for the most part, I’m happy with what I have.

Our two vehicles - our 2014 Honda Odyssey and our 2016 Honda Accord - are fully paid off. And, for me, I don’t want a shiny new car. For me, seeing how long I can keep a car and how many miles I can put on it before it falls apart is the thing. My last vehicle - a 2007 Chevy Cobalt I bought brand new - lasted me ten years.

We have some work we want to be done to our home - namely, a shut put in and the driveway repaved - so, I guess that could be something we want. But as I drifted from aisle to aisle at Lowe’s searching for something - something fun, I guess - I thought of the phrase at the beginning of this post.

The phrase, yes, comes from Amok Time, the classic Star Trek episode. But in my mind, it comes from a poster I had in my room as a teenager back in the late 90s and early 2000s. The poster was, as you might imagine, a Star Trek poster. It had several dozen Star Trek quotes.

But I digress. The real point of this post is that I feel content. But despite that contentness, there’s a desire to go through the journey of how I got where I am again.

I’ve done a few Google searches such as things to make life easier but, as one might expect, it just brings up a list of Amazon affiliate sites trying to shill products. None of which will actually make life easier.

I think, for now, I’ll just enjoy my family.